Several weeks ago I began a therapy called EMDR. I don’t know much about it other than it has something to do with retraining the way that the brain processes emotions and memories. What I can say for it is that I already feel the benefit far more than I ever did with medications. I’m not saying that I don’t have a long way to go, but I do get the sense that I have rounded a corner. A switch in my brain feels like it has been flipped into a new direction. Over the past weeks I have felt more calm and happier than I have in quite awhile. My wife says that she has noticed a difference and her comments started about the same time I began EMDR, so it feels like a connection. It might not seem like a big thing but I went to church with my family today. We went for a morning drive afterward and just have had more real family moments where I have felt present. I bought the kids a vintage Battleship game and just enjoyed watching them play it, I even played a little myself with my youngest. I know that I have a ways to go yet, but it feels nice to be among the living again – with a hope that there can be a real lasting change in how and why I feel what I do.
I don’t know if anyone out there will be swayed by the recommendation of a former Marine grunt/Army Soldier, but if nothing else is working, give EMDR a chance.